dreamsland.

2006-06-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

went expo last saturday.. celia brought me to church.
i think it 's a pretty touching experience. it was so different from other churches i've been to.
and the entire cell group is really nice. (:
i think i've changed. im starting to believe in God.
i believe He will make a difference in my life.

went for dinner with huizhen and ivy today. i guess i learnt quite alot too. i'm looking forward to service on Saturday.

oh yeah,, WORLD CUP MANIA IS HERE!!!

haha. im so crazy about soccer now okayy. and to think i used to hate it so much. (where's the sense in 22 men chasing after a single ball?)

NO.

i am soooo wrong. soccer rocks!!! haha.
i admit the initial reason i was tempted to watch the world cup is because i wanto see Fernando Torres.. haha. he is like the CUTEST player in the world. =p even guys think so can. so i watched my first WC match.. Spain vs Ukraine. i told anyone who would listen that spain would win. and they did 4-0! heh... dad lost money tho. lol. that's for not supporting spain. =x kidding... anyway torres is such a gd forward.. he's 1.91m but he controls the ball so well and his bursts of speed are amazing. he is a constant threat to the Ukraine defenders. AND he scored the final goal. (: david villa played extremely well too.. 2 goals in that match.

so it became a nightly routine to watch WC. haha.
Argentina's 6-0 thrashing is amazing. Messi is damn freakg cool can..
brazil was disappointing la.. onli kaka played well i think.
italy and america's match is so violent.. quite er xin. they deserved to be sent off.
i think germany is quite gd this year. their home turf ma.. lol.

BUT.. i love SPAIN.
i hope it wont underachieve this year again... such quality players. but they've never won WC. closest they came was 4th placing in 1956. that's half a century ago...
i hope they can get into at least the semis this yr again.
they show such team fluidity and potential can? and they have lots of experienced, talented bench players should the young team fail. like how in their match against Tunisia Raul substituted Villa and scored the equilizer goal that allowed the team to break through Tunisia's defence. needless to say Torres scored the remaining 2 goals for the 3-1 win. told u he's talented. heh. he's a great striker. luckily i managed to wake up for the 3am match or i'd have to watch replay. 3 goals in 2 matches. got chance to become top socrer ok. love him man.. (:
because of him, i came to know what a potential team spain is. this is the yr they have the closest chance to taking home the world cup. if the continue their remarkable performance that is.

haha. talk about conversion. im gonna watch EVERY single match SPAIN plays with the exception of next week cos of JCT. even if they are at 3am. lol. dad thinks im crazy. say must be my bf like spain den i so obsessed. lol. super funny sia... he loves guessng such stuff. oh and i bought a soccer photostand thing for him. haha. he was so HAPPY can.. next day bring to office put on table. =D i din realise small gestures mean so much. i think this is the first time i bought smth for him. hm. i think i shall do that more often. he's been really nice to me recently. its not easy being a dad i guess. lol.

hm better sleep now. got to START mugging for JCT tml. argh. till after jcts den.

2006-06-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

seems like everyone is mugging these days except for me.
this feeling is totally weird. im getting to be such a slouch.
Boo.
i havent touched ANYTHING since school ended. my table's so FULL
i cant use it.. gosh. the onli stuff i ever filed up is still human geog cos
Charles Erwin yelled at us to do so.
That's only HALF a subject.
someone save me man.. this is the 3rd week but i still cant pull myself together.
im gonna flunk JCT.

sighhs. holidays like that really suck man. i'd give anything to go back to secondary school days.
where u can play half ur hols away and the sky still doesnt collapse and suffocate you.

on a brighter note though, leo camp was... ok la. first day sucked but water games on the second day was really fun. lol. made a new fren - Julia. she's really cool la. last time from zhonghua bball team. her shooting is superb ok? haha. den we both had fun agitating brian by bombing him. =p wasnt that bad.. met alia to go town after camp ended. She's the Man is really freaking funny... lol. and got quite alot of eye-candy. HA. those who have watched should know la. the male lead is hot.. jus like the spanish male lead in dirty dancing.. haha. i nicked the dvd from alvin's sis' collection that day. SUPER cute... ^.^

okok... no more hua chi.

went for blood test today very VERY reluctantly. but it didnt really hurt. hahaa. whew. my parents are obsessed with us getting the hepatitis B immunition i think. =x

woots. christine's bday tml.. haha. as usual, jaime and i have some plans... *cackles. should be fun.. lol. going sentosa if it doesnt rain. think im gonna get a tan. (:

chen's celebration tml also.. but cant go. haha sorry girl. i'll make it up to u some time. and i read ur blog. actually what mk say is very true leh. know u so long le, but i don really know what ure thinking sometimes.. i dun really noe what's going on in ur life. but yea.. ive realised u dun really noe how to say out some stuff and i also dunno how to ask sometimes, thats why got this kind of misunderstandings and barriers. but guess i din noe how much i knew abt u in a relative sense cos i nvr had That particular misunderstanding. heh. tot u'd have told me if it were true. lol. oh well. have a wonderful celebration ok? haha. love ya. =p

2006-06-03T13:19:00.000+08:00

WOOh. holidays are finally here.. and so fast the first week is gone. sobs.

but ooh. i had a lovely week. haha.
apart from the make-up lessons, its been rather interesting.
i'm SO proud to say that i've finished watching Little Bride. haha. sooo nice can.. very funny. didnt have the time to catch it on channel u so i got my mom to borrow it back for me. finished it in 2 days. (: got any more nice serials must tell me ok? lol.

went alvin's house on wed.. so far.. haha. near toa payoh den take 31 from school sleep wake up le still haven reach. =x lol. but his new house v nice la.. very stylish. and he cooked fried udon for our lunch.. very NICE. haha. so we forgave him. sylvia, smintea, delin they all played xbox while i watched dvd in his sis room. In her Shoes.. quite nice la. haha. kailin.. if ure reading this, yep u missed all that.

wah. den yesterday went to work with calcy and her fren. summer part time job. the pay isnt much la.. for working full day, but it was pretty fun. the time passed alot faster den when i worked in isetan last year. especially since it is skating de. i jus lurrrve the sport can.. hah. and chee keong was pretty nice to us newbies. let us ride in the front of the lorry and sit the boss's limousine. lol. quite entertaining.. helped to coach the jurong west TAF students and later in the afternoon went SAF army base in bukit timah to do the same thing. the skating is fun la but admin work isnt. man.. i really hate carpets after ytd. have to keep carrying them to and fro the truck and like.. they're bigger den me. den got to drag the baskets of gear and line up all the skates in the correct sizes. so now ive got aching arms and back. sigh. but they'll go away soon la i noe. the pay is a pittance and their shop is like quite far but i really like skating. lol. learnt new stuff on the job cause i can jus ask chee keong to teach me anytime. =p he's super nice. enjoyed ytd alot even though its quite physically demanding.. haha. faut and lendis super funny can. both like to fool arnd and talk sick jokes. some fren calcy brought.. hah. but he's nice la. jus a lil nutty sometimes. caught a ride from the SAFAB back to the shop in the back of the truck. quite an experience with faut holding the door to let air in so the 6 of us wont die smelling stinky skates. with the racks near collapse state, we reached the shop. oh did i mention that chee keong has no license? haha. quite a day that was.

mm. gonna be so busy next week. got bbq on sun, mon and tues leo camp, thurs cg outing. CELIA, we go out next wednesday or friday if ure free? haha. miss u babe. really really really A LOT. hope ure doing great. <3

2006-05-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

In a woman's world,
men give birth.
In a woman's world,
chocolate would be fat-free.
High heels wouldn't hurt.
Shopping would be considered an asthetic activity.
And car doors would automatically slide open for you.

That's the advertisement for the Peugot 1007. i saw it some time ago and thought its pretty cool. haha. A women's car in which the interior design can be changed at every whim and fancy or just to go with the colour of your new dress. pretty cool huh. and the men don't get it. talk about being feminist. heh.

BOo!
one hell of a week that was. im jus sooooo glad its over.
i sleep so late everyday my head's giddy. feels like a second after i sleep everynite i have to WAKE up. sigh.

the worload is pretty scary. i cant really cope sometimes. argh. luckily hols abt to come soon.. and next week got Sports Carnival!!! hahahaha. super excitied about it.. cos i signed up for inline skating and captain's ball. lol. and friday we're going to little india to eat tosaii with Mrs Noordin. YAY, i love her... haha. she so TOTALLY rocks ok. those from first 3 months in 34/06 say they've nvr seen her in the same clothes since the first day of school. haha. cool rite? imagine how big her wardrobe is? lol. and she readily confessess that she has more than 50 pairs of shoes.. cos its kinda her fetish. haha. so cool! someday i hope to be able to see her collection. lol. we're so lucky she's our GP teacher.. cos gp lessons are nvr boring. we usually spend it discussing anything under the sun. and she's so knowlegeable yet wild. hehe. i think i jus found my idol. =p

went to support volleyball boys at toa payoh on wed. its the nationals finals against AJ. sad to say we lost 2-3.. but i do think that we put up a good fight la. we nearly won though, which is a lil disappointing cos we were leading 2-1 at a point. oh well. 2nd is still quite good la. next mon gonna go jurong east support badminton semi finals! lol. exciting eh? hope prissy playing.. i wanto see her in action. haha. she's so pretty!!!! lol. even tho i see her everyday la but nvr see her play b4. hm. hope they win man. the guys team also.
think tj sports is quite good lei. girls soccer team playing finals next week. bball won 3rd in nationals but everyone quite disappointed cos they had MVP and were 1st or 2nd i think last yr. they lost to aj in semis lah.. cos they didnt play well that day. what a pity.. but at least they beat vjc to win 3rd placing. lol. even netball won 3rd in nationals. almost everyone is like good in sports in tj it seems.

hm. ytd is so fun too! went to celebrate yee chuan's b'day. haha. met up w yee chuan, wy, danny, li shean, xuefang, yee ning, ming kee and my dear yichen. heh. she cut hair le! lol. haven seen her for some time le. mich also nvr see for v long but she left b4 i saw her. thanks for the pizza hut treat b'day girl!! haha. den went to take neoprint at cs. lol super funny.. we did lotsa weird stuff la. lol. had a lot of fun. but den my scanner spoil so cant post the neprints up. heh. someone send me!!! haha.

Happy Sweet 17, Yee Chuan!!!! (:

2006-05-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

yay im finally back. hees. my com has been down since like more than a month ago.. cant even go msn. lol. but ta-daaaa! got new com le.. haha. head to toe all changed: cpu, monitor, keybpard, speaker, mouse.. so happy! haha. onli thing tt remains is the slow slow modem. but maybe that will go soon too. who knows? (:

wah. my life has been quite 'exciting' since the last update. alot of things have happened i guess.. but most of the timei feel so tired my eyeballs are dropping out and rolling in agony on the floor. haha. YES. its That bad. there's so much work to be done its crazy.. although i must admit i have a tendency every weekend to slack and leave everything till sunday. but at least, hey. i'm not really sleeping in class yet. i doze, i dont sleep. heh.

i think i haven been out to enjoy myself since.. ok, fine today. after PW i did window-shop. but the last time i really went out was a Tuesday some time ago. with the Supremes to the premier of MI3. damn nice i tell u.. haha. we won the tickets to the premier cos of Jaime duh. she HAD to attract this guy's attention by flashing her red specs and smiling at him. poor us couldnt get away and had to do some kind of weird dance in the middle of orchard road. of cos, there's the free tix la. but still.. i really wanted to bury my head and walk this way home. anyway, the best part of the movie was the free pepsi and POPCORN of cos. haha man i loved that goodie bag ok. hee. we so very nearly bought drinks n popcorn. but back to the point, the movie's really nice. Tom Cruise is SO handsome inside. heh. i think im a convert even w his recent odd behaviour ie jumping on the couch scene. everyone should go and watch it.. haha. apriee's re-enactment of the sex scene in class was particularly amusing. =p

i think i watch too many movies recently. haha. even watched Pride n Prejudice too, since we're doing it for lit. i finished the book le and its sooooo NICE! ha. matthew macfden or smth liddat is so shuai. hees.

yep. went for dental recently. changed to ORANGE le. lol. met wanyu n danny on the way who're gg town. *envious. haha. anyway, there's the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE soon!!! haha. i am so looking forward to it ok. ahhh. june holidays faster come!! (:

2006-04-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

havent been online for ages. so i havent blogged for ages. haha. its ok. NOW i shall update u all on my life.

so, i joined leo club. fyi, its a like volunteer club la. so last last sat i think. i went changi for home visit. although not formally inside yet, but must be enthu mah. so me n angie went lor. and as usual, we were late! haha. our whole grp is ALWAYS late for every single lecture n tutorial, even make-up lessons. lol. think the teachers also fed-up w us. and everytime its cos of food. damnit. lol. so anyway it was an experience that really changed my life and perspective lah. outside the building looked like a condo. but inside...... the old folks there are really pitiful. most had old-age diseases like osteoporosis (is that how its spelt?), dementia and all and were barely able to speak la. so we tried to occupy them by teaching them how to fold simple origami. not that i know how actually, jus follow n do. its pretty weird. thats all i can say. the atmosphere there. my hokkien is so lousy la. hah. had communication breakdown. not that the auntie i was responsible for could talk. she had advanced stage of dementia and the lao ren chi dai. and for some reason, she kept crying.. i had no idea how to comfort her except to keep patting her on the shoulder and asking her (in hokkien) not to cry. she seemed like she was in her own world the whole time, a world i couldnt enter. it was a pretty insightful experience i guess cause i saw a side of old age homes i never saw before. i really do want to go back regularly. i think im born too lucky in this world la. in fact, almost everyone in singapore is. the fact that we're so lucky makes us responsible in giving back to society, to the less fortunate. i guess.

anyway, mardi gras was yesterday. kinda cool really. had fire-eaters and all. lol. rather entertaining and grand ah, for a college event. the prelude for the opening ceremony was impressive. i saw mrs than!! haha. me n alia are like totally crazy over her. she's like the best teacher i ever met ok. and omg. she taught Mdm Suriadi back in tj!!!! haha. can u imagine how old she is now? and she's still so glam and all. she looked super gorgeous in red. haha. and although she's HOD of econs, but she's like real approachable. she's so hip la, ex-model and all. she made me love econs cause her lessons are never boring. she's like one of my best friends, even asked whether we missed her! lol. and guess wat. she remembers mdm suriadi. :)

mainly mardi gras hanged out and caught up w my darling alia on times. haha. cant believe she actually blamed me for asking her to come for tj events, cause she says it always made her not wanto go back to vj. hms. haha. other den alia still got ridhwan.. lol. that crazy guy.. he's one of the ppl i really miss from cg16.

today went blading in the morning. den go clementi sing K with my Sns frens, alex and my babe kryshelle. lol. had fun la.. quite high. worth the trip even though clementi is like so in the west.

im so enjoying life rite now. haha. drink, drank and drunk. jus survivin', like mrs than said, on love and air itself. heh. no opportunity costs involved. =p

2006-03-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

ahem.

as of today, i have shiny teeth. *GRINS

lol. shant elaborate. when u see me u'll noe.

and heck. its not the best feeling u can ever get. its quite inconvenient and painful actually.

and to think i had looked forward to it so much. hah.

well thats all. not feeling good enough to say much. haha.

i miss O2 alrdy.
causre ure in it.

2006-03-13T12:44:00.000+08:00

IXODUS OG8 =))

OG 8 Azurous style

Orientation 2 finally over. lol. actually, it wasnt as bad as i thought it was lah. haha. Thursday and Friday totally ROCKED for me!! why? haha. Alia aka Bananas skipped vj and crashed tj!! lol. i was so freaking happy lah. i had missed her so much although i hadnt seen her for 2 days onli. haha. cos she's one angel who totally rocks my world. i had grown so used to her crazy presence this first 3 months that im pretty disoriented without her around. since her successful appeal into vj, im sure many of us in cg 16 felt smth missing in us.

haha. thurs was one of the happiest day ever man. partly cos of alia's presence and also partly cos of HIM. he talked to ME!!!! haha. i almost fainted.. lol. den he sat beside me during one of the talks in the audi too. lol. sat and talked to me. i cant believe it man. haha. and on friday too. he talked to me quite alot. not the whole day la duh. but often enough to make me float up to the clouds. lol. he's so darn handsome and boyishly cute. and this saying about how the handsome guys are either GAY, taken, or jerks? NO, doesnt apply to him cos he's damn nice. and guess wat? he's not a flirt too... he's actually SHY. but still friendly lah. haha. man. PERFECT. lol. tall, dark and handsome. only catch is... i think the whole population of females in tj admire him. sigh. his "fan club" is so big lah. i got no hope... sigh. sad huh.. still. well, at least he knows me. haha. can be friends wat right? lol. den on thurs i was so paiseh. haha. cos the girls from my cg all knew that i thought he's damn cute la. duh. haha. so alia go tell SK. den SK go tell him i think he's cute right in front of my face. ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! so paiseh!!! lol. i wanted to blend into the walls. lol. except there were no walls at the pavillion. luckily, he still talked to me on friday. haha. :)) O2 was so fun cos of him. heh heh.

yep. O night was fun. alia and shang yunn crashed. OG 8 performed for O night!! lol. tho we didnt win, but we did our best la. haha. despite everything, Ixodus still won BEST CLAN~~~~ haha. wheee... Maryam rocks!! she's the only female clan leader ok... You go girl!! hah.

so, friday is the last night i''ve spent as a member of Delta, Ixodus, OG8, CG16. sigh. i saw my new class on friday too, cg 34/06. the ppl there are ok la.. quite frenly. or should i say, the girls are. cos there're onli 3 guys in the class. lol. sad huh. i really really am going to miss CG 16 la. cos the ppl really jus rock. im gonna miss my gang.. Alia, Anita, Claire, Soo Hui who're such crazy ppl. the wacky ridhwan, funny bel, sporting imran, weng inn, shing kwan, rahman.. we may not have been the most united. but i think we do have the inner class spirit in our own unique ways. i'll miss playing pool and arcade with u all, miss drinking tao hui with alia and soo hui and 3-in-1 with claire. n i'll miss ridhwan's trademark "okayyy" which set a trend in ixodus and was used in our clan cheer.

sigh. i really love the class man. perhaps i shouldnt have changed combi. i shouldnt have changed stream. but its kinda too late now, isnt it. we wont even be in the same LTs.. sigh. and i've also lost Mrs Than, my fav Econs tcher who made me like totally LOVE econs. but wat to do? i really want to take subjects in the Arts stream, have never been a Science person. tts why i appealed to change stream. i cant stand PCME. i love the subjs im taking now (GELM), but lost my precious classmates. worth it? hmm.. im still wondering..

i hope things are better soon. i hope i can convince my dad to let me go out.

and i hope u'll add me on msn soon. like u said u would.
i hope u dont forget about me.
cause i cant forget u.

2006-03-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

Group Photo from cg dinner.. probably our last with Shang Yunn. he going vj. sigh.

hah. ponned Orientation after lunch today with Claire. super boring lo morning.. all the admin stuff onli. both of us damn sian.. kena kicked out by OM for ogl. argh. like all the fun ppl in my class all not ogls cos of stupid OM. Bel, Ridhwan, Claire, ME. haha. ok.. bhb. but i quite enthu abt being ogl de ok. i like to do cheers.. haha. me n claire entertained each other by laughing abt stupid things. sigh. i wish i could wear the Orange O shirt. we were the onli 2 enthu ogms in like our og and the clan. argh our clan so dead one. Not FUN. onli plus point is.. Graham is our OGL!!!! haha. how cool is that? he is so cute la. lol. envy me everyone... haha. but yea.. i still ponned anw. yawns. =x

wanted to crash vj.. haha. go find shang yunn. but he said must wear vj shirt or smth. n i was wearing tj O tee.. lol. so went home to sleep instead. ZZzzzz... hope tml will be a better day.

2006-03-04T14:43:00.000+08:00

hah NEW LAYOUT for me.. lol.im sick of having dark backgrounds. so ya. hope u all like it as much as i do.

hm. this few weeks are havoc. haha. i love jc life.. except for the work that is. lol. i don deny i've been slacking away. tt would explain my mediocre grades. lol. afterall, first 3 months are supposed to be fun right? haha. im pretty sure im dropping chemistry. mostly cause its too tedious and i suddenly discovered i don have a flair for it. and also for some strange reason, i'm still very much attracted to Literature after 4 years of taking it. even if its at the cost of working at Hyflux- i don really care now. i jus wanto enjoy life n do what im good at, for a change. and i don think i'll regret this.

so yep. i know i don really have to say this, but im posted to Tj la. Alia too.. haha. im so happy she's going to have to be stuck with me for the next 2 yrs. cos life's much more interesting w her arnd. i swear i laugh too much these days.

Orientation week is next week. SIGH. man i hate to say this but im kicked out of OGL. by the stupid OM whom i have never seen(i think). argh. waste my time going for the interview. damnit.i got kicked out for dyed hair.. when the President of SCIP got dyed hair herself. SO So unfair.... lol. my CG quite alot of ppl kena kicked out. Claire for ponning Chinese and Ridhwan. hah. get this: for kicking the toilet door. lol. damn funny sia. =p but not being an OGL and all, O2 will be a bit sian. haha. thinking of ponning anyone? maybe i jus go for wet games n dragonboating.

well. there's FINALLY cg dinner tonighT~ woots. im quite excited. even tho i had to miss blading for it. but guess its worth it la. haha. cant wait for my CT to finish her house renovations so we can crash her house. i wanto borrow all the korean vcds n movies. lol. she is way cool ok? she told me to teach her how to blade. :) hope i wont change class even tho im changing combi. i'm loving physics cos of her. heh.

anw, i'll try to update often la. lol. must TAG hor!

2006-02-18T15:27:00.000+08:00

yeah. today was Tj's annual road run. aha. dunno why so enthu.. i ran ok. 3.6km. :) come to think of it, its not very far la. but its pretty hard to run fast cos i started out like at the back. den so many ppl in front of u must waste energy to cut ok. den some dunno purposely or wat.. run in the middle of the pavement when they run so slow. haha sorry. but its pretty annoying cos they don let u cut them. i got 189.. haha. top 200 ok. i noe lousy la.. but den so many ppl really super hard to run. lol. sumore its compulsory for all yr 2s to take part. so yep. jus glad i finished it. heh.

Rahman got into top 20 for the guys! cool rite? haha. think he's the 2nd or 3rd Deltian to finish the race.

on a sadder note, alia's leaving me. for vj.. altho i keep telling her i hope she doesnt get in so she'll be posted to tj, i think she should go there la. cos it offers her TSD. den with that she can get the HUmanities Scholarship. $1ooo per yr can? so much... TJ acad one onli 800. n i went thru so much effort to write essay n pass the damn interview. now cos miss by 1 pt, no news le. no wonder la.. all those 6-pointers ppl all applying NOW. argh. i hope tj rejects them. haha. ook.. im evil. first come first serve wat. its so annoying when u miss by jus a bit. cant apply for the MOE one also. they wan the exact same criteria. BOO. why my chem nvr get A1. den everything solved.maybe the chem tcher will be nicer to me too. lol. wateva. he sucks.

miss the gang so much. i noe last week jus met. jus went to sing K. but seems like ages since i last saw u all. haiii.

my fren went clubbing ytd till 2am today. think she drank quite alot. but today come sch still normal liddat. no hangover. haha. pro.. i get drunk pretty easily. nvm tts not the point. i wanto go CLUBBING!!! argh. but i cant stay out so late. sigh. next time ask my bro bring me go. haha. maybe liddat den can. den u all can see him again. =x

2006-02-13T17:47:00.000+08:00

after i learnt Economics, i realised the true meaning of opportunity cost. it roughly translates to... if i take H2 Physics, i have to work my butt off to pass it. and chem as well. seeing as how i suck in both. and if i decide to give up Physics and take up H2 Literature, i'll be much happier and relaxed i think. but it'll also mean giving up my dream.

my lovely DREAM.

darn it.

and either way, i cant go vj to take theatre studies already. cos i jus chose tj as my 1st choice. and im not going to pay another 10 bucks to have someone post me there and squash my dream.

no thanks.

i think i'll jus stick to working my butt off. argh.
i wish my CG isnt so darn smart.

2006-01-15T12:04:00.001+08:00

haha. yaay im back! lol. ok i think i should post a disclaimer: dont ever visit my blog on weekdays cos ure jus wasting ur own time. i will onli be updating abt er.. once a week? on weekends.. haha. cos im too busy. yep. but otherwise if ure rotting, feel free to drop by so that the next time im back online, my tagboard is messily flooded. haha. =p

er yep. been another fantastic week. lol. lectures started and i must say they're going v fast. there's alot of hw to be done for tutorials, but no way of starting, cos i dunno how to do. haha. sad.. starting den liddat alrdy. haha. but seriously, lectures are damn boring. i fall asleep in almost every one except for econs one.. which was interesting. and also cos BRIAN u tong tong. when i was dozing off u called me to ask abt the guns and butter thing. so i kinda jumped - teacher sitting behind can. and i din dare to slp le. haha. argh. yeah but otherwise lessons this week a bit sian. the breaks are like so long. one day onli 1 or 2 lectures for me. lol. but guess next week everything's gonna change rite. the timetable's so packed once they add in the tutorials.

oh ya. there's mass PE on tues. as in swimming pe. haha. quite cool actually. im looking forward to it.

hm. haven really decided which PDP to join actually. now that volleyball's out. got netball, touch rugby, and co left to choose from. haha. netball accepted me, but im not sure i wanto join. i mean, i like to play it and all. for fun. i jus don like to play it in competition. and training for it. haha. i noe it sounds weird. den touch is like this really cool sport la. but that day the training was damn tough. we trained in the RAIN. and it wasnt like drizzling. it was really raining. so we were all soaked and freezing and shivering. and i went home drenched at 8 plus. lol. plus must train alot of sprinting and backward running. im not a natural sprinter. so training will be quite tough. was so tired that night. add that to hw(if i had in the future) im not sure i can cope. sigh. so it means i probably cant choose that for my pdp altho i kind of wanto. lol. den friday i wanted to go for volleyball training de. but den... haha. nvm. the ppl there too pro le. so i went to join ls, xf n yn at co orientation. and the J2s were really v nice la. haha. v funny n friendly. so i wouldnt mind joining it altho i wan a sports cca. lol. ok.. its v luan now. i have to sort this out soon. sigh. on top of my tutorial hw that is.

haha. complicated sch life. but fun la. i went home late everyday =p

oh ya. talk abt proving i look young. ytd i went AH. as in Alexandra Hospital la not Anglican High. i went to pluck out 1 tooth. for braces. so its like my dad drove me but i went alone la. den the doc was really really nice to me can. when he first injecting i din like wince or cry(?) or anything so he said i was v brave. and the pt was the first injection din hurt much. it was the Second one. so i ren. den he kept saying i v brave. and when he pluck out my tooth it was so fast la. i din feel a thing. i was kinda shocked so i asked him liddat onli ah? haha. den he asked if i wanted to pluck some more. lol. den the nurse said im a v good girl. thats why it was v smooth n fast. i went out of the surgery room feeling so confused. haha. den i went home and told mom. den she kept laughing. she say the doc must have thought i was in sec 1! like hello. sec 1? im in J1 can? haha. J1 - sec 1 = 4 years difference. lol. i din noe wether to tk it as a compliment or an insult. haha. i mean, i noe im not VERY tall. so i look younger in that sense. but i got look so kiddish meh? humph. not fair can. i wanto be taller too. but nvm. at least i look young eh? haha.

anw, met the gang minus mk n mich who were working, at tms on fri. it was great seeing everyone again. haha. hope can meet up more often cos i really missed everyone loads! esp chen. haha. its so weird to be in school without her. so i look forward to O lvl result release. den mayb she can come tj le. lol. so we can all not harp on the fact u could have gotten in had u chosen tj at all. haha. yea anw tj so near tms. ive been going back alot. lol. nothing's really changed alot i guess. jus us. our disappearance from the school. i hope we'll still celebrate CNY tgr this yr, and all of our birthdays tgr like we always do. haha. cos it'll feel seriously odd without u all la. haha. hope u all wont forget me ok? lol. tC guys! hope to meet up w u all again soon.. meanwhile, enjoy JC life! haha.

2006-01-15T12:04:00.000+08:00

2006-01-07T17:04:00.000+08:00

ha. back after 3 long weeks..

er first and foremost, guess i jus wanna thank the gang for being so nice, so caring, so ti tie during the past 3 weeks. haha. the reason i have been so busy is cos ive been working my butt off at isetan tampines. and yes.. its not an easy job at all. but nvm. my time is considered well-spent cos i made a number of new frens! haha. there's the ever-so-lame zhi hui and the ever-helpful douglas who kept me entertained and invited me to slack with them when there're no customers. den got some aunties here and there who helped me along. the rest lazy to say... =x

man. i love the GANG so much!!! haha. thanks for coming down to see me, all of u and bringing the picnic stuff for me to eat as dinner cos i couldnt take leave to go. omg.. haha. i was so touched that day! :) thanks darlings! and especially shean, who visited me so many times, xf for making that wasted trip w shean to come and see me and yep. my darling chen who jus came back from america not too long ago. ur pizza was SUper yummy~ haha. thx for staying 1.5 hours jus to entertain me there. haha. and of cos, i wouldnt forget the LOVELY billabong shirt u got for me in the states? =D and mich who shopped w me during break and dined tgr w me. heh heh. love u guys alot, alot, alot...

mm. no chance to like recap 2005. haha. but nvm la. it hasnt been a very good year anw. and christmases.. aye. how i don like this festive season every year. nothing good happens. lol. this yr, christmas eve i was trapped in the cargo lift in tm when i wanted to go down to basement for dinner. sigh. i swear i thought i'd die inside. it was so scary being trapped alone inside, with the lift unmoving, the alarm spoilt n making no sound, and the lift jerking if i pressed the buttons. luckily i got out alive.. i'll die faster of claustrophobia than of lack of oxygen or watever. ha. so yeah. no more cargo lifts for me ever again.. lol.

bad ending to a bad yr.

BUT, good thing i got a feeling 2006 is a so much better one. lol. im gonna be so happy this yr, and guess what? i already am! cos TJ is like the COOLEST school ive ever been to. i'll nvr regret going there man. it jus totally ROX!!! wooooh.. haha. like really. Orientation is great, the OGLs rocked the place down with their enthusiasm, and everyone had so much fun la. haha. we even got mass dance at Suntec fountain and ytd, O nite, guess wat? RONIN PERFORMED AT TJ!!!! like omg! hahaha. it was like clubbing can? everyone was jumping and screaming madly at the band. haha. so so high... although O was like super tiring since we went back so late everyday, but its really the best ever camp and orientation that i ever went. there's so much spirit arnd in TJ.. its wat i din feel in tms, and smth tms really lacked. tms got seriously no spirit, except on sports day, compared to TJ. the J2s are so enthu, everyone got infected by them. heh heh. i felt so at home there even in the first week. it already became my second home.. not that tms wasnt last time. but it really pales in comparison to TJ. BUT, of cos.. the ppl from TMS still rocks la! haha. esp my darlings like the gang n supremes. and TWe. :) <3 them!

and, my clan jus rocks!! Ixodus rocks can! i don care zenith won.. they onli won cos of the balloon game which they were awarded a ridiculously HUge number of pts: 20 000 pts. if not, ixodus would have been the champ. we were leading..=p besides, we got 3 pageant finalists.. and... Imran, from Ixo, my OG n CG won Mr Voyage!!! haha. he's really great. and still got the incredibly shuai, handsome, cute, gorgeous, hot Graham!!! omg. i think any girl w eyes is in love w him can? haha. he's the handsomest guy ive ever seen. =x go ahead, ask anyone. haha. they'll tell u the same thing. and he's in my clan!!!!! haha. see, i told u. Ixodus rocks~ lol.

ok, enough of my blabbering. shant bore u all any further. hope everyone's been enjoying their first 3 months.. wy, danny @ tpj, chen in mj(pity u nvr choose tj or u'd be here w us. sigh), chuan @ vj, chris n rq in mj also. n yy, if ure in MI. those not in 1st 3 months de, have fun ok? haha. miss u all lots.. tk care!

last of all, i would like to wish Miss Chua Wan Yu a belated Happy 17th Birthday!!! sorry i cant make it today.. we'll celebrate next week ok? all 3 of us januray babies along w the rest of the gang. haha. i jus cant wait for the celebration, cant wait to see everyone again. lol. this is such a great yr.. 2006. i hope there's so much more to come~

2005-12-20T18:54:00.000+08:00

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=051213112100-299476

lol. ok, maybe the quiz is a lil hard so choose wisely ok? haha.

wah. alot of things to say but lazy type. how? haha. ok.. i had a really great time today. went out w jaime. heh heh. going out w her has nvr been easy ok. trust me on that. haha. argh. i cant believe she managed to psycho me to buy wat i did. !!!! there goes my savings. =( wonder wat the other supremes will say when they see our christmas cum parting cum friendship gift? hmm.. man. im mad. haha. and she tried to psycho me to walk to suntec w her from Bugis ok. 10 min walk... like real. haha. my thighs alrdy so pain. from painting my house la. haha. now it looks like entirely new. literally "shifted house" le. lol. when its all completed maybe i'll tk some photos for u all to see. Very NICE ok? haha but of cos.. i painted it. ;)) haha ok dont puke la. from the gang, those who have been to my house before will certainly be surprised. cos its very VERY different le. haha. anw, i love my ROOM! lol. it rawks~ cos i painted it myself. lala. haha. ok. i v zi lian today. sorry sorry. im jus drunk. as in hyper high drunk. im always liddat after im out w jaime. she tickles my bones w the crazy things she does. haha. i nvr laughed so much since a long long time le k. maybe i should jus learn from her. i dont need to drink (i love fruit cocktail!) to get drunk. u can get drunk on life itself. den i'll be happy all the time le. haha. but maybe, i'll turn jus as crazy. heh.

ayes. ok, im officially posted to TJ la ok. no surprise there. i literally knew when i chose on the 24th. yep. no vj for me la. as much as i like it, im jus not smart enough. dont kill me yt. hear me out. cos the ppl there too smart le. they in school play one, don study de. at nite den study themselves. i don have that kind of ability.haha. if i dont listen in class, my results will be like physics de, haha. yep. but im troubled over wat cca to choose leh. xf ls they all sure is co de. jaime joining taekwondo? lol i dunno hw to spell. i wan netball... but its v tiring. maybe i should choose volleyball. i dunno. i wanted to join back badminton cos it used to like be my life. but the ppl there so so dao. argh. haha. nvm.

haiz. i jus realised smth tt made me sad- i haven go clubbing yet!!! sigh. n school's restarting le can. argh. tt time b4 Os say wan go de, after grad nite wan go de but nvr.. sobs. haha. hm my birthday coming quite soon. go clubbing on my b'day? haha. tts my wish. wednesday leh. i checked. got free drinks. =p how? haha. we pon school tt day? lol.

ok. werent online for very long le. so here it is.

Rules of the game. Post 5 weird things or random facts about yourself. then at the end of the list ,5 names that are in line to do this . Dont forget to leave a comment 'you've been tagged' in their blog to read yours."

1) i wanted to buy girl boxers today. haha. but ok, i din. topshop one v ex.
2) i bought er.. ok 2 thongs today. haha. see i got psychoed by jaime. the shopkeeper keep staring. i paiseh to keep saying "i dont want" in front of her face. one is roxy de. one is piggy de. haha. tt one is damn cute! it comes with a tail at the back. ;)
3) i had a weird weird dream recently. i dreamt i was getting married but i ran away from the wedding instead(celia lishean ssshhhh)
4) i have a small "moustache". inherited from my mom. lol. n i dont like it!
5) er.. i don wear pyjamas to sleep? haha. i slp in er. shirt n shorts. haha im not sure this is weird.
6) whenever im stressed, i cant sleep. n i lose my appetite. apparently 1/3 of the population are like me. the other 2/3 eat more to cope with stress n gain weight instead. hai. switch, anyone?
7) whenever im upset i must gorge myself on Gelare ice cream.
8) i am scared of goldfishes. they way they look at me makes me feel like an alien.
9) i have a phobia of rain splashing in through the window whenever it rains. i check it millions of times even if its shut tight. tts why i can nvr sleep properly on rainy nights. unless i have my air con on of cos.
10) everytime lightning strikes im sure that the next time it'll hit me. =x ok... im scared of it too.

haha ok la enough le. cannot let u all noe too much. ltr blackmail me how? haha. anw. i lazy to go pass it on. haha. i'll let it stop here k. those who wanto do can self service. im lazy. heh heh.

im surprised. i got severe sunburn tt day after skating for 4 hrs. but then, my skin din peel, unlike li shean's! haha. bleh. my nose from black turn back to normal colour le. though im still v much darker than b4. haha. not fair.. im jealous of brian. as in B1. he still suntanning!!! -.- humph. the world is jus unfair. but nvm. i'm happy. tt day skate so far. next time we go all the way la k? haha B1 lead. go till like changi or where.

yep. today shop super broke le. i din realise hw much i missed shopping. haha. sigh. wanto buy so many things. but.. nvm b'day coming soon. heh heh. *hints. next time give u all wish list? lol. looking forward to more shopping, sentosa supremes outing n gang potluck. ;) countdown to the new year! im looking forward to 2006. go clubbing on new yr eve? hahahha.

2005-12-14T11:28:00.000+08:00

sigh. feel so beat. haha. been sleeping so late lately, particularly at the chalet. *yawns

memorable things:
-played bball until 11pm
-played mahjong till dawn
-went for hike.. saw a beautiful kingfisher (its a blue colour bird) and lots of crabs. oh ya. and an iguana swimming across the river. haha. it looked like a crocodile from afar.
-saw yellow mynahs too. they look really pretty. den got lots of butterflies.. they fly around in pairs.. so sweet la. lol.
-we caught a mudskipper and some hermit crabs. but the mudskipper escaped. poor thing.. we couldnt find it back. ;(

yep. the rest lazy to say la. haha. but the chalet was really fun. going to play mahjong again ltr. haha. if i din know better i would say im addicted. =p

pity though. my fren called ytd and my 3rd chalet for the hols is cancelled. =( haven seen some of them for ages la. plus.. its during new yr lo. humph. now no one countdown w me le. sian. haha. ppl, ask me out!! lol.

funny enough. i keep having weird nightmares lately. luckily they're not recurring. got a particular one i donto relieve anytime soon. =x

ah sigh. i miss 4unity. i miss the gang. haven seen ALL of them for some time alrdy. n yi chen's in america. sian. why's everyone overseas huh. argh. i wan class outing! haha. someone organise leh. school's starting le leh. sobs.

2005-12-05T15:37:00.000+08:00

when i blog-hopped, i saw alot of 'complaints', mainly about the holiday homework.it seems quite funny to me though. barely a year ago we were still doing jus that- stuck in their shoes and complaining about a lack of time for everything. but then now that we're so free we're jus stoning, it jus doesnt seem THAT much better. frankly. afterall, we jus have until the end of this month before an even more hectic schedule resumes. argh. so it still pretty much balances off see.

but still. holidays seem kinda weird without holiday homework. i mean, i dont miss it. but now there're too many time slots for everything so much so that u waste it away. lol. nvm.

sighh.

plus, i have NO job. except for that lousy one which me n wy quit on the spot. lol. talk abt being a failure. i wish i wasnt going to jc man. den i'll have a nice fat job by now already. now everybody's working, who's gonna talk to me? ;( no money to go shopping too.. life's sad. haha. darn. i shouldnt have stayed home to stone today. should have gone ecp to skate. argh. nvm.. i'll be going out again le tml.. go watch movieee. haha. finally aft a million zillion willion years of not stepping into a cinema.

still wanto go shopping though. sigh. got many many things i wanto get.

also, wat jc courses should i take? should i take that dreaded physics? hai. i hate it but i need it. darn. this is all eng's fault. lol. never knew jc life sucks so much till my bro told me abt it. i think i'll b having alot of snooze sessions in the auditorium. ha. even more effective than verma. oops. =p

hai. i wish time would freeze. bring me back to childhood. its scary to grow up so fast.

2005-12-01T11:37:00.000+08:00

mm. class chalet also over le. guess this would be the last time i'll be seeing many of u. at least, till march next yr ba. the days after this, im not sure how they'll pass. but they'll surely be lonelier and less happy than before. i sure will miss those crazy days..

sigh. so much unwillingness inside of me. so many regrets. can u all feel it? i dunno. guess everyone has their own set of problems. right now i jus wish i could turn back time. alot of opportunities missed which i would have grabbed, alot of things i would have seen and done differently. but guess wat. its too late for regrets. they're things u sometimes have to live with.

perhaps i could have stayed overnight. if onli i managed to persuade dad a little earlier. but he onli gave in when we reached home. to ask him to send me there again seemed ridiculous. he was sick. it was late. oh well. nvm. it wouldnt have made any difference.

rainy day ytd. so cloudy at night. no stars.. except for jus one. it was really bright. cos i was sad, yc told me the star was shining for me. haha. thanks. tt was nice.. i felt happier immediately. although the star looked like a faraway satellite. but. see, it was just a really nice thought. xf said she saw a meteor before. as in flying in the sky.. haha. wouldnt it be nice if i could see one. it must be a really pretty sight.

mm. new thoughts, new dreams. wonder if it signals a new beginning.

oh ya. i have a new love. barbequed marshmallows!!! heh. they jus melt in ur mouth. so nice! =p
worth the time n effort n heat spent trying to get them to look like "baos". lol. yum~
haha sorry random thought. man.i cant wait to go out again soon. im bored to death at home.

2005-11-24T18:22:00.000+08:00

hm. Grad nite over so fast.. abit hard to accept. i find it weird man. all that anticipation and nervousness.. and its over jus like that. come to think of it, i feel just like i did when Os ended. a kind of weird unexplainable unwillingness.

um. i noe u all not exactly very happy that i was late. im sorry, i din mean to be late too. it was jus kinda a rush. in the end nvr really tk alot of pics w u all. i felt bad.. really. hope we'll be able to go out soon again?

on the other hand, think the most fun part was the preparation ba. haha. all the crap we said, did and enjoyed. lol. i think her sis and dad find us totally weird la.. haha. her sis is cute though.. and she is so li hai! haha. i should jus go bai them as shi fu. i feel kinda lousy not knowing hw to do anything. heh.

grad nite was alrite la. but think i enjoyed the photo-taking the most of all? haha. those who stayed over should know why we ALL so high and crazy. haha. even yi chen. =p we talked n played alot of games until cannot tk it anymore. finally slept at 3.45 am this morning. den in between keep waking up. lol. cant sleep.. so i woke up at 7, studied hw they sleep instead. hahahas. quite funny.. too bad nvr tk photo. should be quite funny ba. ahas. got no pillow fight.. but got soft toy snatch. haha. everyone snatching for "him". was silly la.. but fun. lol. everyone woke up by 8.30, but 10.30 den we went downstairs for breakfast. haha. jus did stupid things upstairs. had a tummyache laughing. lala. too bad i had to go home aft tt.. cant go yn hse. sian.. when can i have my "tv marathon"? i wan chiong all those series i missed. haha. wang zi rox! bleh. oh ya.. all those "evidence" don leak out k. haha. i was crazy to do tht. or else i reallyy no face le. shall jus dig a hole n bury my head inside forever. let it remain a secret ya? save me some dignity. heh.

lol nvm. for the time being, shall jus watch MVP qing ren. love the show! ha.
and ok la. i admit i was kinda sad sometimes ytd. but its ok. it turned out alrite. lol. thanks to those wonderful ppl arnd me...
i jus love u guys!!!

but then, i think u all knew that long ago already. ;))
cant wait for everything. im gonna be so happy.

2005-11-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

man. i spent the whole day at home today. rainy weather.. so nice to curl up in bed and sleeep!!haha. i admit, that was part of the reason i gave yee ning's house a miss today. haha. den sacrifice my "tv". watched madagascar instead. yi chen de. heh. second reason is also cos i gotta pack my room la. in order to beg/convince/plead with my dad to let me stay over tml. and YES!!! muhahahas. i succeeded. lala. i cant wait.. im so happy now!

hm. but bit sad jus now when i was clearing my room. cleared out 5 super big n heavy bags of files and worksheets. some no feeling while throwing away, some i felt a bit sad. cos they were once the reason for my countless late nights this year. the reason i worked so hard and sacrificed my sleep, to rack my brains for a reasonable answer to fill on the paper. especially maths, chem, and physics. i hated physics so much. but still tried to attend tuition, to copy notes, to pay attention to eng. maybe thats why, among other things, i kept my 3 physics notebooks. and bi jis. its all my 100% effort. got feelings de..
so somehow, to see all that hardwork jus dumped like rubbish is quite upsetting. maybe thats why i cleared them so quickly ba. couldnt stand myself poring over them. if i had, my room wouldnt have looked any different. so i jus dumped everything straight. i dun wan to be sad. yet, i also found some stuff that were apparently "lost" in my messy room. brought back some memories.. those cards, notes, jigsaws which i've forgotten abt. seeing them reminded me of alot of things. its quite bittersweet i guess.

just like grad nite tml. i don noe wat to say man. or how to describe my feelings now. its like anticipation yet unwillingness that my sec 4 life is coming to an end. sure, this marks a new beginning. but im not sure im so ready to let go of the past. at least, not yet. i cant bear the separation, cos its so hard. i literally grew up with u guys, treated all of u like my second family. i enjoyed all those crazy stuff we did, laughing till our stomaches hurt, mugging and striving hard tgr for Os. now, its over so fast. it jus seems like Prelims was over ytd. why must all good things come to an end? i really cant bear this. i noe im going to cry tml for sure. but den. my mascara not waterproof. haha. darn. how ah? n yy going to use mine also. so we both cannot cry? haha. mayb i'll cry at yc house instead. at least wont unglam, like that day at yichen house. heh. sigh. really really bu she de. shucks. shant think abt this anymore. i must still look forward to grad nite. it'll be fun, not sad. fun, not sad. fun, not sad. fun, not sad. sigh. mk me believe wat im saying.

i dont wan to part with all of u.. ever.

2005-11-19T11:47:00.000+08:00

stillcantbelieveitsover.

hah! im so freaking happy. 2 weeks of miserable mugging, of stress levels so high i had 2 weeks of sleepless nights, of nervousness and feeling sick, and being sick. and its over jus like tht. how could i ever describe this lovely, floating feeling? haha. literally floating that is. im just so relieved. heh. road to freedom, here i come!

its been really nice yesterday. really. been so long since we went back there. guess it still holds alot of happy memories ba.. marina. first time eat steamboat there in sec 3, celebrated my 16th birthday with mich there. yesterday, we celebrated freedom. hah. i never felt so free since dunno when. altho onli 7 of us in the end, cos xf n mk were sick and had to go home, altho the journey there was so long, altho we met so many "obstacles" along the way trying to spoil our mood, we were still so High. haha. jus like the perfect family tgr.. i feel so blessed ytd. we, the 7 sisters (haha including danny) had a really fun time piling on calories. hee. i hope i grow fat pls. i lost my appetite and alot(to me) of weight this 2 weeks. haha. nows the time for revenge. =p

cant wait to go shopping, to go out play, to find some jobs, to hang out out yee ning's house cos i wan to watch "tv". haha. got grad nite n entrepreuership too. looking forward to everything.. oh n wy got audition today. hah. wish her all the best ba. but i have confidence she doesnt need it to get in. haha. i need luck too. im going for an interview w yy. ;)

this whole week shall be so exciting and fun. i cant wait!!! hahahaas. action-packed week. looks like i wont b able to catch up w my sleep much. lol. onli day im dreading slightly is friday ba. abit scared.. going to pluck teeth? =( celiaaa u'll be there w me rite? haha. im SCARED. i hate jabs. lol. luckily its aft grad nite. lala.

darn. im gonna b late meeting yy. haha. update soon~

2005-10-22T15:36:00.000+08:00

'wang zi bian qing wa' is such a retarded show. but.. i like it! haha. its abt all in my life that i look forward to rite now, apart from weekends n the days after Os. its like my only hour of escape from the real world, so everytime after the show, i'll feel naturally high n happy. haha. i tot it was a crazy show at first too. but den recently especially, really fell in love with it. or maybe, i jus like anything that makes me laugh these days. with the wave of Korean shows hitting singapore, i don think i can resist the temptation anymore. moreover, its hard to find a show which can mk u laugh and cry at the same time. now, i can truly understand why my cousin likes korean shows so much. they're really nice can.. maybe i should learn korean language w her. hopefully, if they go Korea this yr end, i can tag along! hee.

compared to stairway to heaven, its a much happier show. maybe it isnt always exactly happy, but the mood is much lighter. so if u watch it, it wont mk u any sadder than u already are. haha. true wat. i think my life now is alrdy quite sad.. cos i have literally no life till Os end. mite as well watch shows that mk me happy ma. ha. anw, ming dao and wang shao wei are so shuai! lol. wish i was Ye Tianyu... she's so lucky to have them both. plus, i really like her eyes. they're so much bigger than mine. heh. humans are always greedy.

still, some unhappy stuff happened all within the space of one week. hms. don really wan to comment on anything in particular. jus hope tt it wont affect us for long. to me, its a huge misunderstanding, tts all. afterall, we are 4Unity. it'll be so ironic if we fall out towards the end of our 2 yrs tgr. where's the unity den? mayb 4U meant unity in our own groups? i dunno but i hope this isnt the case. wateva happens, i don wan it to spoil any friendships. that to me is the most important thing ever. although i noe for sure my friendship w a few are still strong, for e others, i cant say the same. but i did gain one more close friend amidst all the chaos. i think we r the onli 2 who dunno wat happened that caused all this. haha. its ok tho. mayb i dun wanto know too. im contented knowing tt i din do anything wrong. lala. plus, now i got one more laopo le. hees. "wo" n "cuo" must always b tgr k? ;)) i shall learn to write it for ur sake. haha.

okok, so no more fooling around. practicals are next week. i hope i do well for them, not like for prelims. i must not be blur this time! sigh. gd luck for all who's mugging for Os den. Jia Youu~

2005-10-09T14:54:00.002+08:00

hiak. back after one whole week of not going online.

life's becoming such a routine again, a routine i have really come to dread. its like morning wake up rush for bus so i wont be late, lessons, recess, more lessons, extra lessons after school, go home, eat, bathe, study and sleep. den tomorrow starts all over again. quite sian huh. its such a monotonous drone! im really going mad. i mean, yea everyday's different and all but these days, im really very tired. as in mentally tired. i nvr realised studying was so hard, or that it needed such a huge amount of brain cells. it jus saps your energy u noe.. tts y i find myself sleeping whenever possible. its NOT because im a pig, contrary to popular belief. haha. its to replenish my lost energy and brain cells so i can survive another day more ok. its really tough being a student, and this is only Os! i don think i can tk the stress of As. its worse off than being suffocated. honestly, wat does the system want from us? mayb i jus shouldnt go JC u noe.. i got phobia for this kind of insurmountable stress. its too much.

next time when im grown up, i wanto migrate to Australia, where the pace of life is so much more comfortable and you don feel like every second spent in enjoyment is a second wasted and u dont have to feel guilty for it. i dont care if im not rich. i don wanto be rich anymore. as long as i can get by there, and im happy with my family, thats enough. lol. anybody wanna migrate w me? haha.

but still. maybe this Os, its jus another stepping stone in life. a new beginning to another chapter. i should be happy.. shouldnt i? if only there wasnt so much stress.. i think everyone would jus perform much better. but as it happens, it cant be helped. i onli hope that will " yin huo de fu", cause sometimes happiness comes in the form of disasters. and i should think i understand this guise very well by now. life has taught me a few hard lessons i will nvr forget esp in yr 2003. things are nvr wat they seem to be, and for that, sometimes i thank God.

2005-10-02T13:30:00.000+08:00

BOOM!

haha. i feel v noisy now. cos im super duper happy! Prelims are over.. hee. ok, so its not The End yet but well. haha. just feel happy la ok?

well, been an extremely eventful week la. haha. really played my heart out Post-Prelims. lala. i swear im going to develop bulging calf muscles soon. lol. not that its nice la cos its ugly. but w all the exercise im doing, i'll be shocked if it doesnt happen. hiak.

went shopping like mad lo. haha. tuesday and wednesday. i think the distance we covered in the malls and all = marathon walk of at least 5 km. hee. really.. walk until my legs are sooo tired. and its not often they become so unbearable that we jostle into shoe shops jus to sit on their couch ok! haha. super funny la. den li shean bought that super nice dress for grad nite. lols. din buy anything on tues. but on wed... haha. another story le. completely busted budget. but.. i happy leh. =) who said shopping wasnt a good workout should try it out. like, seriously. even danny couldnt stand it. haha.

wheets. den friday went blading. li shean and i brought our skates to school. so exciting~ haha. went east coast, the 5 of us. and we bladed for 5 hours too. lols. by the end of it, my legs so tired le. i got 'marathon' k.. gotta chiong back the shop get smth for dear mingkee. lol. think i made it in record time can.. so far. less than 10 mins? haha. den go home bathe change go out again. went pasir ris beach. haha intended to anw. but it looked like it was going to rain so we stayed in delifrance instead. got nice corn soup! yummy~ lol. im becoming quite a pig. think it went rather well ya? at least everything went fine from then on. rushed home after dinner outside to get tickets from mom.

yep. i went Superstar Concert!!!!!! haha. so so freaking happy can. mom last min call me say she got promotion ticket. is $78 seat de.. and we din pay a cent. lala. so worth it la. if i had bought tickets, at e most i would hav bought $38 or $58? hahas. den sure heartpain lo.. my money... =) called my laogong to go w me. lols. is B seat and already cant see their faces. imagine if its behind de.. even worse. anw, went crazy and high. haha. kept recording all the songs. but my stupid cam bu zheng qi.. no memory space. haha. so oh well. oh ya.. Derrick look so CUTE botak la. he n weicong.. haha. den sing the dui mian de nv hai kan guo lai. damn funny.. sugianto was v funny too. den william was shuai. lala. =p okok.. the girls damn power also. esp sin huey. gosh when she sang First Love that Jap hit song i was so entranced la. was absolutely beautiful.. n her sis v pretty n sing v well also. haha. *jealous oh well. but overall it was quite a Friday huh. so exciting. reached home like 12.30 am? haha.

** btw, ive changed my mind abt weilian. he's gd.. really. maybe from tv, radio, he doesnt appear to sing that well. but that nite when i listened from the audience, Yes, his voice is really touching. he even played the piano can?! like.. OMG. im so lousy at it and he cant see yet can play so well. haha. i felt really ashamed for not learning piano properly la. i was really v touched by his performance that nite. i think everyone there was.. so well. another lesson learnt: never never judge ppl until u really know them. yep. im converted. haha.

den ytd went swimming. lol. i did quite alot of laps can. my legs still aching from all the exercise
this week. haha. im going to be healthy~ now i finally understand why jaime so hooked to sports. its jus like im hooked to blading. nth will ever affect my passion for my interests. hee.

and so, well. from tml onwards, im gonna start mugging again. had enough fun and happiness this week to last me until Os are over. or so i hope. going out w my beloved celia later.. hee. FINALLY la..

but when the clock strikes 12 tonight, everthing will resume back to the crazy mugging life i had previously. hope i did well enough for prelims to get into a decent JC. *prays hard. but hey. let tml worry abt itself. im jus going to live in the Present. ;)

2005-09-29T11:39:00.000+08:00

Gosh.

i feel very sad, very bad. when i saw ur email, i nearly cried. partly out of guilt, but mostly out of sadness for u. im so sorry. i noe one Sorry cant mk up for the fact that i wasnt there. but still.. i hope tml we can really mk up for lost time. seems like ages since i last saw or talked to u. i feel really bad. im not a good person. when i was sad, u were there for me. but when ur life screwed up, where was i? and it all jus happened so fast, within these 2 weeks of prelims? Sigh. i wanto noe wats going on man. n i guess it kinda sucks cos i wasnt the first one u turned to? i noe thats not ur purpose, cos we jus werent there when ur world was collapsing. but it sure doesnt feel gd. we're supposed to be the closest u noe. even tho we're not always tgr. so what happened? why are relationships and friendships always, always so fragile? And how come it seems everytime we meet or talk, something bad has already happened? so many times le.. this yr. 2005 sure hasnt been kind to us at all.

a sense of deja vu. like wat happened last yr - i can nvr be close to 2 of them at the same time. i think i told u before? its hard.. decisions are nvr easy. n perhaps for the millionth time this yr, i regret that decision. now its happening again, between u and them.
its hard. but who said choices were easy? and sometimes, perhaps u gotta live w the consequences. just like me?

it hurts lo. cos one by one we grew distant. u were the first, then me. and we all fell victim to what we first scorned. ironic huh? and even last time when smth happened to B, i was also the last to know. simply cos i wasnt really there le. at that time, i was healing my wounds still, trapped in my own world. it doesnt matter that im the last to know, but that it hurts me to see u 2 liddat. i noe how it feels cos ive been thru it myself. i know this feeling onli too well cos it still lingers. B was alot braver than me. and u.. u were always the most unaffected, the most easy-going. but i noe this time its different. cos i can feel it. i jus wanto say its ok not to be brave u noe? i noe still waters run deep. u arent as tough n cool w everyth as u try to be. its alright. cos even the toughest ppl, even guys cry sometimes. its jus better to let it all out.

the worse will be over soon. it'll all pass. cos things cant get any worse rite? cheer up~

i hope tml will be enough. and don worry. if u cry, i'll cry with you. this time, i will be there.

2005-09-23T18:51:00.000+08:00

im seriously pissed. my com sucks~ =(

cant even surf net properly. it keeps shutting itself down. argh. for the millionth time, i think there's a bug. and cos there's a bug, it Bugging me like crazy. haha. well, but im kinda crazy already. from the seemingly endless exams. i nvr thought i'd study harder than this in my life. hah. think my drooping eye bags show smth? the results better be worth it. but still.. cant help feeling scared. i wana go TJ de. shucks. i should have jus applied for the DSA rite? shouldnt have tot i could depend purely on my results. or else. i'll have a place in VJ or TJ le. argh!

why things turn out liddat?

still. i will be happy. once this shit ends. i cant sleep at 2 everyday forever. and still have nightmares abt the paper next day. it is seriously making me go MAD.

sighh.

why do we have to study?

2005-09-17T16:50:00.000+08:00

come to think of it, i actually have a lot of dreams.

i mean, alrite. i day-dream all the time. but these kinda dreams are different. like.. they are what i hope to be able to achieve in life, yet they cannot be classified under "Goals". haha. dunno if that really makes sense. and somehow, i doubt that alot of them will ever be fulfilled. i mean, some dreams are well.. just dreams rite? who's to say that with one life, you can make all that you want come true?

confusing.. and somehow, kinda worried about some things happening around me. i hope everything turns out alright.

2005-09-15T18:21:00.000+08:00

2005-09-15T14:29:00.000+08:00

YAY!

first week of exams over. phew. haha. so happy.. just that there's more to come. =x

ayes. kinda worried abt the results though. especially for practical la. i jus keep flunking them no matter how much practice. ms woon rocks.. but why my QA sucks so much? sighh. threw away 6 marks for not getting the carbon dioxide gas.. tot it was ammonia. shucks. i really smelt it can. someone cheated me. =( that affects the conclusion, which is like 4 marks. so 10 marks gone. brilliant. hope VA can save me. at least, let me pass practicals can? haiz. my theory had better be good. i dun wanto disappoint my favourite teacher. Woonie Fan Club! hah.

anyway, saw this like really cute baby boy on the bus. ok maybe not baby.. toddler? he has small teeth. lol. he really cute la. he n his mom sat in the seat in front of me. then he kept playing peek-a-boo with me, covering his eyes with his hands n peeping out at me underneath the black hand bar above the seat. so cute rite?! haha. babies are so cute can. last week when i went to school for practicals saw this toddler n his mother beneath my block. haha. he kept calling me jie jie so i like stop to play with him a while. so adorable la.. haha. they look really kawaii when they smile.. den their eyes like bright n twinkly de. talk about eyes that talk.. hahs. all babies are just So cute~

omg. haha. cant believe i jus swooned over 2 babies. lol.

ohh ya. den saw this dog that looked ALOT like Bobby that day. Pomeranian also. the fur like bobby's - long, silky n damn nice. haha. gosh so freaking jealous at that moment.. cause bobby's like gone from my life. only had him for 3 weeks, but some memories really stay. i loved n doted on him alot can. like i spend more than half my weekly allowance buying him nice dog food, collar, bones n ball. rushed home from school daily n i'll be so delighted to hear his barks before i even open the door. miss taking him downstairs for walks. haha. the over-enthusiastic boy will mk me run and exercise with him. and to think i used to wake up at 5.15 every morning to take him downstairs to pee n shit before going for school. that alone - the waking up so early is like a huge sacrifice cos well. i cant even wake up before 6.20 nowadays to go to school. always have to run after the stupid bus so i wouldnt be late. miss him sitting beside me as i used the com or read the papers. den we'll flop down on the floor and he'll watch tv together with me. he's really tame and active.. miss his tongue-wagging, doleful eyes when i scold him n his happy tail-in-the-air wagging when i pet him. SIGH. wonder where in singapore he is now. even if i adopt another dog in the future, none of them can replace him lo. he's like my best fren liddat. ayes.. huge huge loss.

oh. and King of Castle is such a morbid book. i really cant get myself to study it in detail. have to force myself to continue reading the analysis by the guide book cos i feel totally shell-shocked n repulsed by Hooper. he's like just so evil, agressive and cunning. and he will never be caught because he uses psychological warfare against Kingshaw, makes it look as if Kingshaw is the bully, and is able to make Kingshaw inflict damage upon himself without doing anything to him physically. like, psychotic rite? he has totally NO morals and jus ruthlessly expliots kingshaw's claustrophobia and fear of dead animals. like how a hunter hunts down his prey. and he's only wat? 10 years old? i feel sick jus writing about him. and to discuss about him in detail in lit is quite draining cos i could never quite find the right words to express how i feel about him. really pity kingshaw alot.. the boy never had a chance in life. n i cant help wondering what would have happened similarly or differently if i were in his shoes. *shudders

children shouldnt possess such evil traits. what happened to that innocence they were supposed to have? guess it jus shows that grisly crimes and evil wrongdoings arent jus limited to adults alone.

now i feel seriously lucky that i have a happy and normal childhood.

2005-09-07T13:40:00.000+08:00

I may like many many songs. but these 2 songs in particular hold very special meaning to me. haha. no idea why either.. from the very first time i listened to them, i'd never quite been able to forget their tunes throughout this yr. so yep. decided to post their lyrics.

歌曲：记得

歌手：张惠妹专辑：真实

词:易家扬曲:林俊杰

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

~~~~~~~

歌曲：再见北极雪

歌手：周传雄专辑：星空下的传说

曲:周传雄词:厉曼婷编:屠颖

北极雪下在梦中
憧憬的迷惑
我们是否曾经相爱过
你总习惯牵我左手
我还能记得
想念后不论后
不知什么理由
应该为你笑过为你哭过
为你生怕错过
我们选择分手那一刻
想着什么
有时恍然心动或是沉默
如果梦里再相逢
北极还再下着雪
是否能再次握你的手

2005-09-06T11:00:00.000+08:00

HIAK!

im back.. haha. due to popular requests.. thank you thank you. hees jus jk la. im not THAT bu yao lian.

sighhs been rotting away all week.. haha. major catching up w sleep n so not in studying mood yet, though i tried to study la.. lol.

HOW?? prelims coming le.. im so freakg uptight abt it. argh. my results have been slipping since sec 3 n this term's reults havent been that great either, albeit physics first time A1, but thats jus cos i din take the first test which was harder. hmms. nothing to be proud of. my ss got slight improvement! haha. onli subject im really happy with.. NO more F9s i hope. i really wanto get A1 for combined humans.. it'll be so wasted if ss pulled my lit down like it did last time. A2 to c6.. haha. how great.

shucks. supposed to spend ytd mugging but haha. SLACK! i went skating in e evening.. woots~ finally know how to skate backwards n TURN. haha. major achievement seh.. got big improvement. its not as smooth as i would like it n i cant do it still like those pros but. lala. all thanks to my bro.. heh. and i can spin a little more stable now. =)

thats all for now. gotta really start mugging le. later still got tuition.. hope tonight can skate agn. TA~

2005-08-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog for ages. but no chance.. really no chance. so here goes a really long post.

went back to school on sat to tk some bks i'd forgotten to bring home. den i walked up to the band room cos i really missed it loads. havent been there so long, so much has changed! no more lines n lines of untidy shoes.. all the shoes now arranged in 4 long rows of shelves ever so neatly.
peeped into the band room. *shock
there were pretty curtains hanging everywhere! argh so nice. inside, everyone's playing in full band a song so familiar n yet i couldnt place it. the band sounds stronger and nicer than ever, playing that pop song with a kind of zeal i really enjoyed even as i stood outside listening. band stops. zat corrects the band's rhythm in his usual style of singing it out loud. all these things.. so familiar yet so strange already. i could see hidayah's colouful socks even as i peeped in n it was black that day. haha. sense of irony.. everything's so normal n im missing out all the action n fun in the band, in the section. it's as though i had never been there. nope. not a trace of me. not a trace that i had been there only few months ago. sad.. really sad.

i couldnt go sentosa to support them. nah.. prelims coming rite up. n i havent started seriously on revision. i feel really sorry cos i wanted to b there. but i couldnt.

Another thing.

Derrick's out. and i am seriously SUPER sad about it, no kidding. i watched Superstar for him. for HIM. i really loved him alot. hahs. i'll admit that jun yang got the nicest voice i'd ever heard. but.. with derrick it was different noe? his singing style, his voice n everything that he does, not jus his looks made me so mad about him lo. n i DID vote. for every single time he performed. esp during revival round. i would have voted so much more had i known it was going to come down to this. sighhs. REGRET sia..

nearly cried when the results was announced. i jus finished lit mindmap u noe n time was reaching 12. so i sat in front of the telly, my bro behind me. n i was jus so shocked when they announced wei lian got in n derrick din that i couldnt even cry. i was Numb can.. n i din sleep well the whole nite. =( all i could remember was how derrick cried n how he's already not in the semi finals. the place should have been HIS! jus so darn sad... haiz. i told my mom n she told me smth very important. she said that being so young was his capital and he had a long way to go in front of him - he still held so many chances n opportunities to become a star! if he really did become one now, won the whole Project Superstar, his success would have come too easy. Because people in this world NEVER EVER treasure what they get too easily. it's only what comes with so much sacrifices, hard work n tears that they really reach their goal. and in a sense, i understood what she meant. my mom's a really wise person. it may really have been a blessing in disguise.

Nevertheless, Derrick will always be THE Superstar in my heart, win or lose, now or never. i love him loads ok!!!

Lastly. this is to thank all those who cared. you all really helped me alot n made a difference in me! thanks YuYing, Jaime, Celia and Brian esp!
yy for being there tgr with me when i was at my lowest. yeep.. u rock gurlfren! i don care if other ppl said we were les at that time. u really helped me to cheer up! i'll nvr forget those starbucks days! haha. n the u waving excitedly at the passing bus on the way to MP? hmms. ;))

Jaime, for those emails which i'd keep in my inbox forever and never delete. somehow, i had knew that being in diff classes would not change our friendship one bit. its still as strong as ever, at its peak. thanks for standing by me for 4 yrs already(!) n always, always being there. i'll never forget u, someone who's there for me at my lowest. love u loads sis!

Celia, the sexxy gorilla who never fails to notice when im down n out. you've cheered me up so many countless times with ur lame jokes that got even the surliest me giving in to crack a smile. n i think u understand me the most, haha. sometimes i wonder how u guessed what i was thinking! i love going shopping w u soooo much! haha. retail therapy seh. u are someone who's really always there for me too. i really treasure our frenship ok? hahahs. LOVE ya loads babe. u've been so great!! Besties foreva!

finally. the UNCLE. humph. Brian. well thanks dude! for always cheering me up by finding some super retarded reason to BICKER w me. haha. u idiot. whack me so hard lo. i shall not lose u again!! =p dunno how u do it.. but somehow whenever im feeling sad n blue, u'll notice. n no matter how hard i try, i cant NOT smile. haha. thanks ok??? really appreciate it!

I love u 4 LOADS ok? haha. n alot of others arnd me too.. (i'll name and thank u guys later) thanks to all for being there. u all rawk!=)

and this will probably be the last entry i'll post. at least for a very long time till prelims are over. till then, i'll think of derrick still. haha. hope you guys study hard n do well ok? time to start mugging~ =x

2005-08-09T21:05:00.001+08:00

woots. Happy National Day~ hahhas.

today is a super NICE day ok? lol. though i had tuition early in the morning today at 9.. but the rest of the day made up for it. my family n i went to eat lunch at Chinatown, this famous chinese dim sum restaurant la. the food there was like..

WOW!

omg. nvr seen so much delicacies in my life can? got abalone, scallop, mango n prawn salad.. and then. forgive me for being sua ku. got Buddha jump over the wall? uh.. the fo tiao qiang thing. wahhh.. first time eat~ so darn darn nice!! muhahahhas. i drank every single drop of the soup! hee. see.. National Day is great rite? =)

went out the whole day.. den mom and dad bought so much stuff for us.. as in. foodwise. heh. anyway. NDP this yr quite nice.. its not bad at all. lols. i thought the fireworks were really cool can.. so preeetty!!! sighhhs. pity. i din get to watch it again this yr. nobody to watch with anw. my parents dun really like crowds n my bro is Anti-social. hahahs. =p

but well. at least it looks nice on the tv. tho.. abit no atmosphere ah. haha. maybe next yr ba... who wanto go with meee? ;))

2005-08-08T16:45:00.000+08:00

Urk hums.

The Story of 2 'Very Intelligent' People.

It all started on National Day Eve. Everyone was high-ing cos there's no lessons, just slack and fun the whole morning. Especially after the super funny teachers' day concert which got everyone into very good and high moods, A and B so did not want to go home just yet. They jus wanted to stay High and have more fun, before the dreaded Prelims and Os finally come. So, they decided to stay and cheer for their class 4U's friendly Basketball match against 4S(i think).

So after a very exciting match, (tho 4U lost, they really did try very hard so well done still), A and B went off to Simpang Bedok to eat Prata. Yep.. it was super nice! so after being stuffed full, they decided to take 9 back to Bedok interchange.. and um well, they got alot more than they had bargained for.

the bus went off first into Simei, then Tampines and then Pasir Ris (YY's house?). Both of them felt really weird.. cos isnt like the bus going the wrong way? After all, they had checked the board at the bus stop and it DID say the bus would terminate at Bedok interchange wat. ok nvm.. so they sat on, hoping that the bus would turn back soon. afterall, it maybe a very 'short' route yea?

the bus went on.. until well. suddenly it became rather ulu. like those buildings on either side of the 2-way narrow road look kinda deserted n creepy. but still, A and B sat on, hoping the bus will turn back just ahead. eventually, they saw Changi Beach. Cause both of them nvr really went there before, they were jus nicely admiring the scenery u noe.. and talking abt how nice it would b to go there, how sucky it was to go to stinky(sorry) Sungei Buloh and crawl in drains to sniff out rubbish. yea.. like retarded? then B saw a plane landing.. " is that changi airport?" she said. but later both agreed that they thought Changi Airport was only the place where u could see the huge T-shaped building with a yellow ball on top.

after some time, the bus suddenly turned. uh-oh. A saw a RED sign board, ever so tiny, but it said " Restricted Zone". then, the bus stopped. A man who looked like a police man got on. having tot that he was just another passenger, A and B ignored him. Until.... he reached them and asked "Your Passes?"

oh shit. so A and B were chased down the bus by this cute(!) security guard who well. had the decency at least not to laugh right in their faces. cos it must have been quite a sight.. 2 dumb-looking sch-girls wearing red and white and looking like they came from a part of the national flag yea? and they trudged off the stu-peed bus EXTREMELY embarrassed and proceeded to the opposite bus stop where the guard had pointed them to when they told him they jus wanted to go uh.. Bedok. complete with everyone there staring. yep.

imagine how stu-peed A and B felt then! they were cheated by the stupid sign board ok! and they landed in the midle of nowhere with ppl staring so intensely. and they still had no idea where they were or why it was a restricted zone. until.. A caught sight of some words on the bus board. it said "Changi Airport Cargo Complex"!! A and B were like totally shocked as they sat waiting for the stu-peed bus 9 to come (agn). It was such a long journey back home and they were both tired, embarrassed, thirsty n looked like they were dying. =(

think u should noe by now who A and B are?

if you dont, then well. i suppose they cant lose any more face den they alrdy have.. so. jus don die laughing ok?

A is ME lor.. and B is Yee Ning!!!

humph. we felt so cheated can! haha. sighhs.. how did one simple trip back to bedok become so complicated we dunno.. all we noe is it was Super Malu n we aint got no more face left. hahs. luckily i don blush that easily.. or else. when we were chased off the bus by the cute n nice guard, my face would hav been the shade of my shirt(rmb national flag?). yeah sighhs.

still.. it was an 'enlightening adventure'. at least we got back safely n learnt something:
To Never Ever Take 9 AGAIN in our lives!!! hahhaas.

why do people do such DUMB things sometimes har? haiz... but well. just like an email i recieved recently, at least this trip is smth interesting n worth remembering. like. smth crazy n different from the current 'NO-Life" Life we have.. who knows.. i may look back in 30 yrs time at this memory with a bittersweet feeling, yet still smile briefly at the kind of naive n stupid behaviour i used to possess. teenage years eh??

God knows.. i neednt wait till then. Some.. Actually alot of certain memories im alrdy starting to miss them one by one so much, esp those High and wild sec 3 days..

Ayes.. Those were the days man. Too bad they'll nvr ever come back again.

Memories will always be memories...

2005-07-22T13:51:00.000+08:00

sian... im so bored at home.
haha. missing school is always like this. and my brother HAD to bring the harry potter book to school. humph. there goes any hopes of me reading it when he's in school. plus, he got BB today so he'll b back late. sighs. im so darn unlucky these days..

first, there's the cough n flu. then fever. then i had to develop rashes from the medicine cos of allergy. and now, i dislocated my toe. ='( oouch. how painful is tht lo. had to hobble all arnd school n climb so many freaking staircases ytd due to home room system. argh. if i'd known it was dislocated instead of a bad sprain i would have gone home during pe. n tht's when i still had the money to tk cab home.. imagine taking a bus. which was wat i did. hahas. well, n then there are the grazes i sustained 'cause of the fall. one's kinda bad. haiz. n it wasnt even my fault tht i fell. i tripped over someone's foot, which of cos she hadnt intended to put there. it jus HAPPENED. it was nobody's fault. jus PURE bad luck for me. sighs.

why am i so unlucky?

haha ok. i shall quit whinning abt this cos it aint helping. off to to doc.. tata~

2005-07-19T17:38:00.000+08:00

ahhh..
today is a rainy day, which makes it nice. haha. i mean like, nice weather to sleep la. i really like rainy days alot.. haha. dunno why. guess i jus love the rain alot. like the way the raindrops fall n splash spitter spatter is kinda pretty to me. i can jus stare at the sight all day(as long as im out of the way in somewhere safe n warm la). ;) lols. ok, im jus a lil slightly MAD. haha.

well got photo taking today wor. hahs. well, a bit sad. cos i'll probably end up looking ugly in the photos, like i always do. normal photos nvm la, but.. this is last yr u noe? haha. oh well... for some reason i din stay for band photo taking, which was a lil sad too. i jus wasnt in the mood to tk i guess. plus.. its till kinda late.

sighs. den got 'conned'. haha. the abalone soup i bought no abalone one! dun even have fake one ok.. onli have mushrooms n more mushrooms. sigh. hahha. ok, like today is a totally weird day for me.. onli plus point is - i got my lip gloss! hahs. since my lip balm wasnt working well, i decided to get a new one. woots~ blueberry. lol. should be nice ba. ;))

sighs. school is so sian nowadays. im totally sick of it sia.. sick of Os too. urgh. i dun wan to be 16!!!! haha. but well, other den this, guess my life's pretty ok. have got enough to contend myself with n get by la... jus wish that sometimes, things were a lil more exciting? and i should totally jus stop having nightmares, which really scares me for some reason in the middle of the night and disturbs my sleep. hahs. well.tht's all ba.. be back sooN~

2005-07-11T10:38:00.000+08:00

had wanted to blog ytd.. but i jus couldnt. after watching the repeated telecasts of Project Superstar and groaning for an hour why Derrick was out, i fell sick. haiz. yeah, i got flu, sore throat n fever, and my head kept spinning. sighs. well, at least got revival round. this time, i don care how much it costs can. haha. I WILL VOTE!!! (anw, my mom supports derrick too. so i figured she wouldnt mind if my bill was er-humph. slightly higher. ;D )

anw, was in such a state ytd. i was being like really retarded cos the fever was making me so. my eyes kept glazing over n rolling about n my mouth just couldnt close. haha. ok la this is half -true only. heh. but well. i still cried ytd. 3 days running alrdy.. cos. really, i was jus so touched.

guys, my all-time hero is my MOM. and i swear that she is the single most capable, loving, caring n self-sacrificial person i ever had in my life. not tht dad wasnt, but i'll leave tht to later. really. i really admire her n respect her n love her loads. if not for her, i wouldnt be who i am today. heck, if not for her, my whole family wouldnt be wat it was today. it would have broken apart years ago. but she stayed strong for the family, gritted her teeth, blinked back tears. she din care how much effort it took her to keep the family back together. she worked n is still working 7 days a week. Yes, 7. even on weekends.. n she rarely has any form of recreation after work. unles u count rushing home to cook dinner, washing the clothes, hanging them, folding them, washing up and den ironing b4 she goes to bed. BUT, nvr have i heard her complain. NEVER. n she is one of the people i know who loves to smile the most. even after all that has happened..

she has suffered so much for us, for this family. yet, i din always appreciate all tht she did. i rmb when i was young, i was really v naughty n stubborn n would anger her so much she'd cane me till my legs were full of cane marks n bled. then later, she'd come n cry n say how sorry she was, how it hurt her too to do tht. and put ointment in my legs. i rmb how she used to give me her full support all the way in wateva i was doing - my badminton matches, my studies.. anyth tt came along the way. i rmb how she'd go out of the way to do n buy stuff for me, when she couldnt bear to "waste money" n buy them for herself too. when i was in p 5 and 6, she was the one who stayed up everynite w me to do my english hw, altho her english wasnt gd. she was the one who checked the dictionary for meaning aft meaning for words in my practice papers while i onli had to copy them down on paper. dictionary aft dictionary. cos she insisted she checked faster n i wouldnt hav to do it all alone.this being after her work when she was all tired, and we'd do till midnite. n i'd tell her to stop n say its ok if i din finish. but she'd noe i would sneak up at 4.30 in the morning to finish it. so she'd wake up too n help me, regardless tht she was so tired herself n had to work till late tht day. i rmb how many times i've hurt her with my mindless comments, hw she n dad were favouring my bro, how she din understand or cared enough abt me. i rmb how many times i was the cause of her fight w dad, cos she would side me. i rmb hw she would help me w my chores n even do my laundry for me jus like ytd, cos i was so weak i couldnt wash my own clothes. i rmb countless times when i was sick, she'd wake up in the middle of the nite to test my temp, get my a glass of water n feed me medicine, like ytd..

she's really the best mom anyone can ever have. yet, i was always this hard on her, blaming her for smth which wasnt her fault, blaming her for not being perfect, when she was alrdy as perfect as can be. it was I, who wasnt perfect. i really want to be like mom when i grow up... and yet i still havent had the courage to say the 3 words which mattered the most to her n dad. i feel really useless... i had planned to ytd when i hugged her. but it jus. din come out. i hope tht she can hear me tho, tt she'd understand. cos jus like her, im not gd with words. so i hope she'd understand my actions, which hopefully conveyed the correct message. i would have gone up on saturday nite to speak, but she wasnt there. nope, i'd ask her not to go cause she was going for some CC singing thing which was her only form of relaxation n which she loved. i would hav gone up no matter tht i have never spoken aloud to crowds b4, esp an audience tht big. n i had stage fright. i would hv told her the 3 words there n then. but, she wasnt there. it really made me sad. cos for the first time in my lfe, she wasnt there for me. but i guess i made the right choice. i mustnt always be so selfish n keep her to myself. its time i grew up too.

Mom, i really love you.

2005-07-06T17:04:00.000+08:00

well. feeling really stressed up now. sighs. school seriously sux can? i hate it. absolutely.. cos now there's not really much meaning in me going to school. there's like jus nth to look forward too. cept maybe the ppl inside.. tht's wat i tell myself when i force myself out of bed every single morning. i go for my frens. sighs. strange huh? and i used to jus love school so much last time. hahs.

haiz. im like so not doing well in my studies. i mean, maybe im still ok la. but like hw come everytime i study so freakg hard den the results come out still liddat one? my determination n motivation is wearing real thin these days. haha. jus as well i guess. got the 3-day-and-nite long camp thingy to drill all these positive stuff into me. i jus hope it stays...

dunno why but im getting quite alot of mood swings too. darn. n i jus cant help but not be happy. haha. im a natural-born worry-wart. i worry myself sick sumtimes. n im jus feeling so sad n down these days. its jus everything arnd me tt's not rite. budden, hw do i say it out? hw am i supposed to answer wen ppl ask if im ok but im not, or wat is mking me like this? its complicated lar. haiz. wish things could b alot simpler.. i don wan anybody to worry bout me. i dun wan anyone to really understand wat im so sad abt. cos.. im not proud of it. sighs. i jus wanto b happy. why is it so hard den?

nvm. must jia you n work hard for Os. no matter wat happens, i must not give up. i cannot throw away my future! haha. was thinking.. if i cant get into TJ, den i mite as well go poly la. lol. cos like... sian. cant get into VJ(impossible!), cant get into TJ, n i dun wan TP. i dun wan MJ too.. not cos of anyth, but cos its too far. i'll b spending half my life dozing off on the bus n MRT. hahhas. so well. i better get into TJ lor. *prays hard

sighhs. well. i kinda keep thinking abt this certain person. haha. quite some time liao.. he keeps appearing in my dreams. but den like too bad lor. i dun think we're like fated or anyth. haha. o well. =(

*jus wondering and dreamin about wat my future would b like..

2005-07-01T17:47:00.000+08:00

i am confused.

haha. things arent wat they seem to be anymore.

i dunno how to make it all come back to me. i really miss those times spent together last year. those times i was jus so happy inside out. sighs. its not any of our faults though. i dunno who to blame also, theres nobody to blame. ayes. maybe.. jus forget it ba. tk it tt the fault is mine.
But, i jus hate being stuck in the middle. really i do. yet im always jus caught in these kind of situations. mayb. i shouldnt be like tht. i should stop myself from being too nice. den all these wouldnt happen.. if onli i could get myself to do that. hahs. if onli..

chinese Os oral coming. J had hers, said it was ok. the passage is easy? haha. i hope mine is too. anw mom told me not to worry abt such stuff. cos no pt also.. wat will happen will happen i guess. jus gotta do my best.

sighs. im wanto skate so much. miss going east coast park in the weekends, like i always used to. the stars are jus so nice there.. i love being there to enjoy the night breeze n all when i skate. haha. o well. maybe i'll go blading tonight den. blog soon~

2005-06-24T14:21:00.000+08:00

lalala~

ytd got gathering. 10 ppl go.. me n mic were late. haha. ok la, its cos of me. I was the one who's late. for 5 min only ok. but yea. apparently 5 min was all it took for senior to go off. so i got blamed, heh, for the rest of the day by her. oops. =x

BUT my pt was, we were still early lo. when we reached there, onli kenneth, wei ning, n jin juan reached. hahas. havent seen them for like AGES. dunno hw many yrs liao. lol. so at first abit awkward la, but aftwrds like everyone started crapping agn. den they all started saying i've changed alot. n they almost couldnt recognise me. =p jin juan changed a lil la. shes gone n become so freakg smart can! L1R5 perfect score. and she takes 10 subjs?! omg. haha. dun wan talk to her liao. den ning told me she dreamt of me the nite b4 the outing. haha. o.0 i was like shocked. heh. cos um. i dreamt of sum1 too. which really puzzles me cos im nt like close to tt sumone at all? n i havent seen him for ages le can, or talked to him. but dream? haha. so weird. mayb.. its cos a part of his name still bears a certain special meaning for me? lol i dunno. nvm.

went bugis walk walk wait for the rest of them. JJ wan go kino-smth. hahs sorry i cant spell. its a bk store la. den huang lu came. den kian hwee, nixon, ning xin, cheryl. oh ya saw cheryl's bf. lols. he's quite cute i guess. but kenneth says he's v poseur boy? er. dunno i hw to spell also. n i think its a lil weird. like cos reminds me of welson, tho e guy abit more gd-lookin la i saying the way he walks n dresses n all. he's from CHS ah? den cheryl's from like RGS? lols. ok i shouldnt b so ba gua.

anw caught up w them alot. den like we go think of our other 30 classmates. heh. like got some i completely forget liao lo they still rmb! den xchange news tt kinda thing. oh. we were late for the show. lols. but Initial D rawks!!! ;D edison is so shuai inside. haha. actt shawn better lookin in real life, but in the movie he's like kinda old. i think jay's ok la.. but cant say anyth abt his acting skills, cos the character is v similar to his own. i like his dad, anthony wong tho. hah. damn cool n funny. ;) the movie's nice.. hahah. i think the races r rather exciting seh. i like the cars. =p

anw, we walked for v long. den go play pool, cos the guys wan ma. gosh, haha. i should nvr hav gave in can. i nvr played it in my life b4 n i pretty much sucked at it. haha. den so malu-ated. *sobs i keep trying to poke the stupid balls with the cue n provided i dun miss, the balls roll off in a weird manner. AND, they never go into the holes one!! sigh. forget it. im not playing pool agn i swear. hahas. im jus nt cut out for it. talk abt being embarrassed. hahs. so ok, thurs was fun, if tiring.

today went sch give back blazer. hahs. saw the section agn.. so happy! :)) they nvr change much la, even aft the brisbane trip. lols. russ is like still as action as ever? haha, no actually more so den last time. everyth also "push an octave". heh. damn action i cant stand it. lols. mel's the same tho. same old dependable, pro n frenly her. den got eden.. haha. he also nvr change la. n my fav LES jx. heh. missed her so much whn she's away. haha today we were reunited. but shes kinda busy w her librarian duty. =x but still, she rawks!! heh. she brought me PRESENTS from Brisbane!!!! whooooo~ heh. yup. billabong k? wahhs. im so lucky to have her. haha. i know it must b ex.. nvm. i buy u a big big b'day present whn ur b'day comes ok? haha THANK YOU so much~ u all got roxy, i still get billabong as consolation lei. =p so happy haha. onli din saw hidz. she's late la.. overslept. nvm, sch's re-opening. n i think hearin the sec 1 n 2s play, they did improve pretty much too. ;D

oh. took 229 home aft tt. couldnt stay too bad. i gotta cook lunch, plus the com repairman coming. so yup. strange thing was i saw nian jie on my way home. lols. i was like on bus staring out of the window. he's jay-walking across the road. den is like he suddenly turn back n saw me. thru the bus window! i still tot he cannot see sia. like quite far bus moving. sumore drizzling. den he suddenly smiled n waved. lols. cant believe he still rmbs me lo. been like 1 yr plus nvr see him liao, longer still nvr talk to him. onli recognised him cos he walk v funny one. or mayb he tot im sum1 else? haha lols i dunno. but it was quite a funny sight really. den i rmbed her.. ya, it was thru her of cos tt i knew nj. seems pretty ironic tho. tt until now he rmbs me, but den things hav changed. me n her.. nt even close liao or on talking terms. as in, we don really talk la. n to think we used to b so close, like sisters, den now, liddat. quite heart-pain. cos those were really precious memories.. n i really did miss those times. sure, there're other ppl in my life now, in place of her. but, was i really naive enough to think tt they can replace her? nah.. no one could. they're so different n special in their own ways. no one could replace her. tts smth i realised today. or she them, but tts another story le. sad ending.. but mayb. its jus fate.

the ppl in my life are there for a reason. they're impt to me in all the various diff little ways. interlinked, connected. but different. each of these ppl mean diff things to me too. some jus frens, some gd frens, some best frens, some gurlfrens, some les, some sisters, some brothers. but all are ppl i love, in one way or another. they hold a special meaning to me, as long as they entered my life,they made a difference.

2005-06-22T16:39:00.000+08:00

testing..

urk-hums.

so, u've stumbled onto my new blog? hahahas. welcome to my world~

well. decided to leave my old blog behind cos its kinda virus-infected, with ads popping all over. i hope this wont happen here tho. heh.

hms. feeling kinda sad tho. leaving behind THAT blog, with all my memories n recollections of last yr, which in my opinion is the best yr in my sec sch life. but i hope to have a new start from now on, leave behind the past and work towards the future i want.

so, be prepared for a lil change in me. for better or for worse.